What creates cynicism?
Age, for one. A better word for it would be experience. Interactions, burned bridges, and the disparity between what is being said and the hypocritical actions that follow.
I did horribly in my A levels and my response was just that – “good enough”. I knew I wasn’t going to get much from it and pulling that piece of paper out of the envelope on results day confirmed it. My eyes skimming the contents briefly and promptly sliding it back in, shrugging and hearing myself utter those bloody words.
Growing up is difficult. When you are younger, your reactions towards adverse experiences tend to trigger responses of ‘why me’ and ‘it’s not fair’. Chances are if you are a teenager, you still enjoy throwing the odd temper tantrum whenever your mum sets those pesky curfews.
I was 22.
My sister had just booked us a trip to Amsterdam, as a celebratory thing for successfully finishing my master’s degree.